Back to the Big Bad World

By: Meradeth Houston on 8:12 AM

Of queries.

Yep, folks, today it's back to the agentless world of awesome. I sent out an email earlier and now it's back to the agent-hunt. I probably shouldn't call it a "hunt" but considering all the research (as some have put it, stalking) that goes into this process, well, maybe it fits bit better than one might think. It does help that I've already got a full out there with someone (*ahem* dream agent *ahem*), which is the result of a long and confusing tale. Still, I'm not holding my breath on that one.

Really, all this has been quite a test of my determination. I want to be published. I want to do it right. I want an agent who believes in me and my work, especially when I think it's all a bunch of crap. That's what I'm going to be searching for now. No looking back! Still, there's that little voice in my mind asking "well, if you'd been good enough to start with, you wouldn't have had this problem." Grrr! I hate that little voice. Too bad it isn't easy to get him to shove it. All I can do is go back to my lists, see who I got requests from last time and I didn't send to because I'd already accepted elsewhere, and check out all the shiny new agents that are out there now (holy cow, there's been an agent Explosion!). It is time to move forward.

So, back to the trenches for me. A little wiser this time, too :-)