Yeah, admit it, we've all been there. When someone else manages to do/get something that you wanted. It happens. If you've never experienced a little jealousy, well, tell me how you do it, because I'd really like to know. Anyhow, there's a reason why I'm writing this (duh) and it has something to do with being bitten by the green-eyed monster (I love this metaphor). Somehow watching someone you've worked with a whole lot, and done your best to help, can make their success really sweet to you, but it also makes me want to crawl under my desk and bang my head against the wall a few times. The whole "what am I doing wroooong?" whine is pretty close to the surface.
Okay, let me back up here a bit. I'm incredibly happy for my critique partner. We've been working together for several years now and I love her work. She deserves to succeed more than anyone I can think of. She's got an utterly awesome book that I am so happy to be able to say I got to read it in its early stages. It rocks! And, of course, things are falling into place for her. It was bound to happen, and I'm really, truly, happy for her. And I'll admit that I wish that I could say the same for myself. No, I don't wish it were me, not her, but I do wish I were seeing the same kind of response. And I kind of hate myself for even thinking that. But, there's no way to just "turn the switch" and have my feelings go away, so I really should be funneling this energy into something, right? Um, like making cookies. Cuz that's what I'm doing this morning. Yup. Oatmeal chocolate-chip. *insert drool here*
And, hey, I won a little contest this morning, over on Rose Cooper's blog :) Some days it's the smaller things--right? Like contests and cookies.
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