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The last of the smoke cleared from the fireworks that had
lit the bay. The booming thunderclaps had scared the last dogs and the crowds
gathered their blankets and chairs. The trickle of people headed home were a
little quieter, their voices still filled with happiness, but now muted by the
night.
“Ready?” He leaned over and bumped my shoulder with his own,
a small grin lighting up his features as I looked at him.
I sighed. The end always came too quickly. The light from
the show over too soon. I didn’t want to go back. If only there were a way to
pause, let the night linger for just a few more hours.
“I guess.” He stood and held out a hand, pulling me to my
feet with a little added force that made me run into him.
His arms caught around me, tugging me close as he rocked us
around in a slow circle on the lawn. The lawn around us had nearly emptied and
the calm of the night, the rush and hiss of the surf past the low wall, marked
a perfect moment.
“Another year,” I whispered. His neck felt cool against my
forehead as I leaned against him.
“One of many more.”
I didn’t respond. So many ‘ifs’ clung to that word that I
didn’t dare think too much about it. We could only hope for many more. Our
lives depended on it.
We gathered up our things, folding them away into a bag he
slung over his shoulder. He took my hand as we walked up the path toward the
city lights. A few other stragglers trickled out onto the busier street, the
clog of traffic still creating a long line at the freeway entrance.
We kept walking, no real destination in mind.
These last few hours were the sweetest. The ones I cherished
the most, even if the always heralded the end.
“What did you like best about today?” he asked. His hand
twined with mine squeezed a little tighter.
I cocked my head to the side, pretending to think it over.
While the fireworks were always my favorite, today had more things to
celebrate. “The laughter.” There had seemed to be more today. More faces
smiling. This city we visited so infrequently had felt happier. It rang out in
smiles and the laughter of the faces we watched.
The answer seemed to please him and our arms swung as we
walked along the lit sidewalks, passing parties and sparklers and music that
spilled out to greet us.
“The peace,” he said, with a shrug, knowing I’d want to know
his response.
“You always say that.” I laughed at how obvious an answer it
was, coming from him.
“Doesn’t make it less true.” His dark eyes met mine and the
night with all its wonders seemed to expand before us, ignoring the end that
approached all too fast.
Almost seeming to respond to our good mood, a siren, then
two, cut through the air. They slid under my skin and I shivered, drawing
closer to him.
The source of need came clear as we walked. Two blocks away
and we smelled it. Flames. Our pace picked up. The heat came next, burning away
at the ocean mist that swallowed the city.
An officer, face grimy and eyes too wide, kept the crowd
from getting too close. We joined the throng, but even the hushed whispers of
horror couldn’t drown the screams.
A Church. One of the oldest in the city. And faces and hands
beat at the windows in the second story, the roar of orange flickering flames
licking at the same glass. The leaded windows were too hard to break.
On the lawn, it was almost worse. The gathered people,
wrapped in the silvery blankets handed out by the EMT’s, sobbed and pleaded for
something to be done.
The words, scrawled in giant white letters, seemed to glow
in glare from the police searchlights. Hate grew from them, impossible to
ignore. Those around me stiffened as they read, no one wanting to believe
someone could have done this on purpose. Not on this night. Not in this
country.
Arms went around me and I tried to let that comfort me, but
this scene seemed to eat away at every bit of happiness from the day, consume
each of the laughing faces I’d seen and joined with.
“Remember, it’s just one event,” his voice spoke in my ear.
A quiet reminder to hold on to the good.
“Why does it have to be this way?”
“If we understood that…” he shook his head. His eyes
completed the sentence: if we understood the why of why people stove so hard to
take away the liberty, the freedom, the very lives of so many, then we might
have a chance to fight back.
But we didn’t understand. It went against everything we
could see and understand.
We watched, my hands pressed against my mouth like I could
hold in the scream of dread that settled in my throat—hot and prickly. The
flames couldn’t be stopped. The police forced us back.
The Church collapsed.
Parents wailed.
The crowd cried.
I had to look away and pressed my face against his chest,
soaking his shirt with tears.
His lips pressed against my cheek before his breath rushed
warm in my ear. “Look.”
I followed his finger toward the opposite side of street.
There, the house that stood there had thrown open its doors, and a couple with
their two children pulled people into the warmth of their lights, pressed water
bottles into hands, offered blankets to the shell-shocked people who watched.
“Is it enough?” I breathed the question.
“For now.”
The tug that caught at my lower back signaled the time. We
needed to go. Without looking at one another, he took my hand and led me down
the street. Around the corner and into the shadows.
“Next year?” he asked, already a whisper as we faded.
“Will we be able?” I hated asking the question, spoiling the
last moments together. But I wondered. The power that gave us this one day, the
ability to feel and touch and celebrate the feelings that gave us shape. The
beliefs of so many that literally breathed life into us for this single day.
Could it last another year after what we’d seen tonight?
“Don’t doubt it. Same time, same place. Next year. These
people aren’t free of us yet.” His smile was warm, confident, and I knew it was
mostly for me. For comfort.
My fingers were numb and the feeling reached up my arms,
wrapping around me so I couldn’t feel his embrace any longer.
And then, with a rush of wind, we were gone until the next
Independence Day.
Happy 4th of July! Have fun.
ReplyDeleteOh, nice story. Bitter-sweet. Happy Fourth to you and yours!
ReplyDeleteVery well done!
ReplyDeleteHappy Fourth of July!
Intense story. Hope you had a great holiday weekend.
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